The voice in my head
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Voices in my head

I guess I was facing a serious psychological breakdown. One that never allowed me understand that it’s OK to fail sometimes. One that wouldn’t make me understand that failing is a part of life and that I could learn from my mistakes. One that kept this illusion in my head that I was only meant for greatness and that I had no room for excuses not failure. The voice in my head.

It was just like a voice in my head telling me you can’t do this,you can’t do that. My doctor says voices in the head are regarded as a symptom of mental illness. But wasn’t mine a friend??? An invisible friend that had my back at all times?? Wasn’t mine the only person that cared about my success and the only person who knew how I could make it in life?? Isn’t this the kind of voices each and everyone would love to have in their life??.

My doctor also says that I should accept that the voice belongs to me. That that is the first step in developing my own point of view and taking responsibility of myself. BUT HOW?? from what I know if the voice was mine I wouldn’t have achieved the much that I already have. The me that I know knows that it’s okay to suck, the voices I could hear if it was my own voice could be AM TIRED JUST SLEEP, LETS WATCH A MOVIE………the me I know is practically lazy so definitely the doctor is wrong. The one on my head knows no failure. The one on my head would feel that something is inherently wrong if I fail. So he is wrong,right??.

What you don’t know is that, the voice in my head made me selfish, proud, greedy and most of all evil. I can say it was building a monster inside of me. Everything I did was always for me that would mean I don’t care what happened to the people around me. I guess I even forgot what it meant to be humane. The voice in my head had made me invincible in a high level spiritual way. After all my future was more than just bright. At the age of 21 I knew what real progress was. This is usually the time many at my age suffer trying to achieve it in life.

This time round I think it took me too far and what I didn’t know is that this would be the start of my downfall. I didn’t know that my downfall would be the one to tell me the truth about the voice in my head and that I’d have to live with a certain degree of insecurity not knowing what the voice in my head would do to innovate and survive after leading me to the point that am in. Chained in an hospital pain mumbling what I couldn’t understand myself…………….

TO BE CONTINUED……..

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33 thoughts on “THE VOICE IN MY HEAD!!!(PART 1)

    1. Thanks for sharing! It can be very difficult to war with your inner self. But, I always say go with your heart!

  1. I always believe and go with voice in my head …as my heart and my head will never give me wrong suggestions

  2. Thanks for sharing! It’s often difficult to war with your inner self. Best advice: listen to your heart

  3. Very interesting read.. I would try to trust my voices in my head & in my heart as well, its all mine.

  4. I know exactly how you feel, I had a similar break down at the start of last year and it took a while to get out of it.

  5. It is often said that when a person who rides a motorcycle begins to believe that he/she cannot fall, it is time for that person to get off of the motorcycle

  6. Hi Shadrack Biwott,
    It seems to me that you did listen to the wrong voice. The voice we should listen to comes from the heart.
    The voice from the heart leads us to actions that feel good and is our real guide. The voice in the head is usually the ego which often is louder. We need to learn to differentiate and find which the right voice also called intuition or gut feeling is. The voice Gandhi ji is talking about is the right one.
    “There come to us moments in life when about some things we need no proof from without. A little voice within us tells us, ‘You are on the right track, move neither to your left nor right, but keep to the straight and narrow way”.-Mahatma Gandhi
    This our intuition which Jiddu Krishnamurti calls the whisper of our soul.
    I am looking forward to read more and hope you will find the real inner voice our best guide in life.

    Thank you
    Erika

  7. I love how open you are in this post. We all go through hard times but as they say – what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger

  8. It is only when we look at ourselves without any filter that we can learn and grow. It sounds like you have done that and now it’s time to become the beautiful flower that you were meant to be.

  9. I believe that everyone of us are encountering this kind of situation and I agree that sometimes we need to listen from the voice on our head, analyze it and then make a decision.

  10. There is a difference between the inner voice and a mental issue. We all have voices in our head that we choose to listen to them or not. They can be retrained if you are wanting to create a new belief system. It is first figuring out who you believed said those thoughts and giving it the voice of the person who said the thoughts. That way when a thought comes up then the dialog is from that person who said it and you can choose to believe it or not.

  11. I think that the voices in our heads are often there for a reason. Sometimes they can be bad (of course), but for the most part, they’re a good guiding force.

  12. I am sure that this is happening from everyone of us. When there is a voice in my head I listen to it but definitely inform my heart about it so that I can make a correct or right decision.

  13. The voice in our head can be positive or negative. The negative could be self sabotaging and we have to shift the voice in a better way.

  14. Sometimes that voice is our head is the one of reason — oftentimes, we are the ones to figure out whether or not it’s a good choice.

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